Today I went for a drive. It really doesn’t matter where I drove. It happened to be San Diego to ring in the New Year with some of my favorite people. What matters is that I realized making a long drive is a perfect thing to do on New Years Eve.
Driving is one of the few times I slow down long enough to just sit with my thoughts. I put on some music and wonder. As one does at the end of the year, I spent some time thinking about the past year. It’s been a long one full of challenges and sacrifice. There has been loss and subtle shifts in my life that are both small and huge at the same time. As I look ahead to the new year, my vision is so different than it was 12 months ago.
And I continued to drive.
The playlist that served as the background music was perfect. Music is important to me There were songs that made me sing as loudly as could. Others that made me smile as I remembered some past event. There was one that made me cry.
My thoughts turned to the year ahead. What do I wish for? The answer was so clear. For 2012, I want more of everything I got in 2011. I want the fun times with friends and family…who doesn’t? I want to succeed and grow. I want to learn new things While still enjoying long held passions. That isn’t enough, though. I also want the other side of things. I want the challenges and hardships. In the low moments I remember to truly appreciate the highs. In pain, there are opportunities for the amazing collection of people I am lucky to know to show me they care. In calls and texts and hugs and care packages that warmed my heart when it desperately needed warming.
I want it all.
At this point, my playlist shuffled to an old Willie Nelson song and I found myself listening to:
Oh, look around you
Take a good look
Just between you and me
Are you sure that this is where you want to be.
And my heart was sure.